Had to change my font because SOMEONE's computer couldnt recognise wingdings. Hmmm.. today was a great day. Missed church today so kinda pissed at myself for not waking up on time. But no matter. What's done is done.
Anyways i met with a couple of my friends & went to study at Harbourfront center. You know the Kopitiam that's on the third floor? That's an excellent choice of location to study because not many frequent the place, thus making it an ideal place! I wanna thank Changhua & Amos for tutoring me on Maths & Principle of Accounts respectively. I Seriously learnt alot today so thanks Bros!!
But the day stood out from all the other days only when the day was ending. It was getting late & Amos and i were on our way home. We were having a heart-to-heart conversation. Have you ever had that before? That one to one chat when we can really be honest to each other. I love those conversations. When you are in a crowd, you might want to be the one who likes to the center of the attention by cracking jokes or making faces just to impress a chick or whatever. When you are in a crowd, you can just stand behind the rest & just listen to them without uttering any words. When you are alone with someone you're close with, you have nothing or no one to hide behind. And i love the straight talks you can only get in that situation.
He started the conversation by asking how i have broaden my dreams since Caleb shared with us about how to dream dreams and achieving them through faith. Hmmm... How have i broaden my dreams? I did not broaden my dreams on that day because i feel i have to take one step at a time. I only just planned out my actions on achieving that dream. The huge rock that's blocking my path right now is the O levels. If i could not only jump over that rock but also destroy it completely, i would have taken a huge step forward in reaching my beautiful goal. That's more or less what i told him. He shifted his weight a little to the left & told me that i'm not dreaming big enough."World-renowned," he muttered this. I am more than what i think i can become. Wow. It echoed in my head and now it still does. Now i have been re-lit with a bigger desire to study harder for my examinations! I can feel it!! WooHoo!!!
We chatted on other topics but i rather not share it here. I might 'have a cup of coffee with some of my elders'!! If you know what i mean of course!!. *laughs* Anyways, i am urging you blog-readers who only harbor splendid ambitions but do not act. Now is the time for execution! Raise anarchy if you must!! But don't step blindly for you might be walking the wrong direction. Have faith in not only God but, most importantly, yourself. Only that way can anything be possible.
Here's a countdown to my O levels just for the heck of it :
57 days till my first O level paper. =)
Hey, How are you? That chair comfy enough for you? It's alright? Ready to begin? I'm not. Well, here I am gazing at the screen with idiotic face & thinking of what i should write about for my FIRST blog post and immediately i'm thinking an introduction to the world of me! Or at least what i let you see. So it really begins riggghhtt nnooww.. Just direct your beautiful eyeballs below this sentence and we are on the way!
Idealist. Perfectionist. Anarchist. That's how i define myself. Don't understand why? Here, take my hand(or your mouse) & tread on. (Got the definitions at dictionary.com)
1) Idealist - [ahy-dee-uh-list]
Definiton - a visionary or impractical person.
Sayings of an idealist - One day, cold-fusion from a glass of water will provide unlimited energy & end war.
A visionary or impractical person? *Laughs* One describes oneself as a person who can see what no one have seen before while the other says you are just a dreamer. I admit that i'm a dreamer who dream big dreams whenever God allows me to. But i dream only the ones that are plausible & not impossible. What about you? Are your dreams really that achievable? Wait this is about me, not you. Alright on right track now.
Take my projects with Keith(hey bro!) for instance. We made a song together for 2 of our friends for their birthday & they loved it(at least that's what they told us). Now we are on another hush hush project now and it's getting ambitious by the month that i can see us doing a music video! Haha.. Anyways, that's just one example & i don't wanna babble on about this. So moving on.
Perfectionist - [per-fek-shuh-nist]Definition - a person who demands perfection of himself, herself, or others.Sayings of a Perfectionist - I want this glass to be filled with water that's 36% cold, 24% hot & 40% warm.
Well, this really explains itself but works on different levels on different people. Some are deem themselves perfectionists only when they abstain from the "7 Deadly Sins" during their living lives so as to achieve spiritual deliverance. Others might want to be too perfect. Just like the example i gave.(look at sayings of the blah blah blah...). Well, i look at things a wee bit differently. Here's to sum everything up, i expect alot from myself & i want it to look perfect. But i don't really expect anything from you. Seriously. That's the different part if you didn't notice.Maybe it's because of a series of events that led to me not really trusting anyone to accomplish anything for me but that's just my thinking. Not that i'm being perfect for the society but it's just for my pleasure. What i accomplish is gonna please me more than it does to for you so that's why i'm a perfectionist.
Anarchist - [an-er-kist]Definition - to revolt is to refuse to obey the constraints imposed by anotherSayings of an Anarchist - Pour the glass of water at the manager because it's not up to standard.
Revoloutionist. Traitor. Rioter. Troublemaker. Just different.
People who know me "are going are you sure you are a bloody anarchist? Do you even know what it means?" Yes i do know the meaning. And i wrote it up there. People look at the word anarchist and think of sick bastards ,with swastikas tattooed on their forehead, raising hell & just causing trouble that are most disturbing. Well i am like that. Except for their appearance, we really feel the same way. Well I look at that word & see Freedom of Speech, to fight for a cause you have total faith in when the society condemns that very cause. I believe a problem should be dealt with at any cost, but not to the extent that people have to die for it. That's what seperates me from those brutes.
Anarchy is not being swayed by the ignorant & impassive crowd who molests you mentally & anyone who don't think alike would be deemed a riot maker. Condemned by those who think highly of themselves or even a shiny golden God who can do no wrong. I am the few who is trying to voice out what i feel. I want to riot against the boring, old tradition of the people whom just take the pain & don't give it back. I need to be there to start the making waves in the stagnant waters. I was already at the front lines being hurt again & again until i am what i am now. Get used to it they would say. Get used to me i want to retort but have no chance on doing so.
The simple reason why they see us as wrong & them right is that they think they are right. The same goes for someone like me. You got to do something to make them change their mindset. Cause that ripple however because someone's bound to feel you there. Anarchy promotes extreme actions. That's the only way to turn their stiff heads.
But these 3 traits weigh out each other perfectly. I look at the future too much & become unhappy of it, thus having ideas on raising anarchy to the point where everyone stops & stare. But i'm pulled down by my perfectionist streak, wasting time just waiting for the perfect plan where no one else is to be involved except me. All i can do now is just wait & write about it.
Anyways, ending with a happier note, i'm actually rather happy with my life now. Few cracks here & there but hey nothing i can't resolve. I have already prepared my with the mindset that It just takes time. So i'm not rushing. And to you guys out there, just wait. You'll get what you deserve whether good or bad.
